about a few things? why yes, yes I can because this is my blog and I may say whatever I please right. Well 1st let me just talk about being in Colorado. We have been out in Littleton for 7 weeks now and I definitely have my ups and downs here. The first week I literally cried every single day at some point. This is basically what Crew and I do here... Ride bikes, go to the gym, take beef for a walk, go to the pool, grocery shop, be at the apartment. We do some combo of that everyday. Sounds pretty nice doesn't it. Well some days it is and I have a good day. But some days the loneliness really gets to me. Jared is gone from 8am-10pm everyday m-f working and 8am - about 5 on Saturdays. So its just Crew and I and Beef by ourselves most of the time. I am really grateful for all the quality time with my son especially before this baby comes and things change a bit. But some days its would just be nice to meet up with a friend to chat and let our kids play together. I've taken for granted having friends and a life in Utah, its hard to start from square 1 again. There are not many young moms at our apartment complex at all and our ward is fine but I really haven't made any friends. Part of that is my fault for sure but a lot of people are not overly friendly here either. So anyway I am trying to do my best and make the most of it before we leave, some times its just hard.
On another topic I am 30 weeks pregnant now and the reality that I am going to have this baby soon are setting in. I've been feeling some anxiety about doing it natural again. The birth center I'm giving birth at does not administer epidurals so if I wanted one I would have to go to the hospital and be stuck with a huge bill, so I really don't have a choice. I did it with Crew and I know I am certainly capable. I guess this time I just know what I am getting into. I believe not using the drugs is best for the baby and the mother in most cases( though it is not for everyone) but that doesn't stop me from feeling a little nervous about it.
Ok well I guess that was it.
Anyone have baby boy name ideas? These are the ones I like.. Nash, Slater, Bo, Slade. Like any of those? I'd like to have some more ideas if you've got them.
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Ashley, sorry to hear you are so home sick. It sucks being away from all your friends and family. The people in other states are never like Utah people. But keep and open mind and I'm sure you will meet someone you can talk to there. You are such a friendly person, anyone would be lucky to be your friend.
Sorry girl! That must be so hard. I just want you to know that I'm thinking about you and missing you. Just try and focus on Crew and realize you'll be home soon.
I'm feeling the same panic you are about the birth process. But I think you should be encouraged by the fact that the second labor is usually shorter and easier!
Wish I could be more helpful.
Love you!
Everything will be fine.
When I hear Slater it makes me think of Saved By the Bell!!
I hope you are feeling better. I miss you and love you!
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