A LESSON LEARNED

So I go to this hip hop class at Golds Gym on Wednesday nights, I don't make it every week but I go as often as I can. 2 weeks ago Lindsay (who teaches it) asked me if I would sub for her today, I was quick to say yes. Afterward I was like "what did I do" I hate teaching and I suck at choreographing. OK really I don't hate teaching, I just get anxiety thinking about making up a whole combination, and hoping I have what it takes to to be a fun teacher and keeping the energy of the class up and all that. Really I think that anxiety is FEAR. FEAR of failing, and not living up to everyone's expectations. I almost called her about a week ago to tell her I couldn't do it, just so I didn't have to worry about it. But I wouldn't let myself. I told myself I CAN DO THIS. I've been dancing for 15 years, I have experience teaching dance (very little, but some), in general I am a capable human being, there's no reason I can't do this right? So several days ago I started putting together a combination, I surprised myself, I actually came up with some pretty sweet moves, so I was happy about that. I went to class tonight prepared, and ready to do my best. And............. It went really well, better then I expected for sure. Once I relaxed and decided to just be myself everything just flowed. I had a lot of energy, I felt like I danced well and taught the best i knew how and it seemed like everyone had fun, I don't recall anyone leaving during class so that's a good sign. There were about 25-30 people there so a pretty big class which made it really fun. SO it turns out I don't totally suck at choregraphy, and the only reason I was scared to teach was because I don't do it very often. I'm really happy I stuck to my guns, and pushed through it. I had something to prove to myself, and I proved it tonight. Its hard for me to be out of my comfort zone, but because I put myself out there I grew and became more confident and walked away a stronger person. So the moral of the story is BELIEVE IN YOURSELF "Whether you think you can or you can't, either way you are right"